Day Twenty

Day Twenty: August 6, 2010
Weight: 215.4

Breakfast:

• 1 banana: 105 calories, 0.4 fat, 0 added sugar
  
• Peppermint tea: 0 calories, fat, sugar

Lunch:

• Spinach and mozzarella ravioli: 200 calories, 5 fat, 0 sugar
  
• 1 cup 1% milk: 100 calories, 2.5 fat, 12 sugar
• Mountain Dew: 80 calories, 0 fat, 25 sugar
• Wheat bread: 70 calories, 0.9 fat, 1.5 sugar

Dinner:

• Arby's turkey BLT: 570 calories, 24 fat, 4 sugar
  
• Arby's curly fries: 270 calories, 15 fat, 0 sugar
  
• Chocolate chip cookie: 140 calories, 8 fat

After dinner:

• Whipped yogurt: 140 calories, 2.5 fat, 21 sugar
• Gushers: 90 calories, 1 fat, 13 sugar
• Italian ice: 100 calories
• Pizza: 300 calories

Exercise: 30 minutes bike riding; 30 minutes on the elliptical burning 500 calories; weight training.
Total: 2165 calories

Alright, I'm not gonna lie, I'm pissed at myself for eating so much after dinner. I'm going to my cousin's wedding tomorrow, and I'm afraid that, since it's been so long since she's seen me, she's going to silently judge the way I look, and she's going to say to herself, "oh, Beth's gained weight."

And I have that fear about a lot of people; it's why I don't want to see the people that I didn't like in high school, now. The people I was friends with are fine because I know they won't judge me, but everyone else...I don't want to run into them in town or anything.

But I need to remember that it doesn't matter what other people think and...stuff like that. Ha. I'm tired.